I don’t know when or how it happened, but somewhere along life’s journey, I stopped believing in myself. I stopped believing in myself, and almost gave up on myself. I stopped believing that my skills and abilities were enough. I stopped believing that I’m capable of, worthy, and destined for greatness. I’m almost too ashamed and embarassed to write this, but if someone would’ve told me last week that I didn’t believe in myself, I would’ve been puzzled. I have confidence, ambitions, and a moderate level of self-esteem. I guess I thought that was enough.
Yet, recently a friend of mine pointed out to me that it wasn’t, and never would be. I was stunned that she could see through my smile to my hidden pain. I was surprised that she could hear me crying out for help underneath my positive voice and cheery disposition. I’ve felt abandoned, ignored, and invisible for years to certain people. However, she made me realize something: Many people in your life may give up on you, but you musn’t EVER give up on yourself, even if they do.

Lord, I’m having a hard time believing in myself with all these negative people and circumstances surrounding me. Lord, I want to give up on myself and wallow in self-pity because of the negative environment I live in. Lord, help me to never stop believing in myself.